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TAT members share their personal convictions and/or concerns
Skillful Progress
I recently watched a short talk by art teacher Ian Roberts (“5 Principles to Master Anything”; see his YouTube channel) where he described the five steps involved in mastering any skill. I think the principles he outlines can be applied to spiritual seeking just as beneficially as to any other field of endeavour.
#1; Learn principles, not techniques.
It’s not how you sit, or for how long you meditate (or pray, or fast or any other activity) but understanding how meditation contributes to your goal of spiritual development. Of course, this means you need to have a sense of what your goal is.
If your goal is to feel better, happier, more peaceful then there is a good chance meditation will contribute to that for you immediately, but if your goal is to correct your misidentification with your worldly being you need to understand how meditation contributes to this goal.
How you understand your goal, ultimate or short term, will influence your understanding of what are the fundamental principles of your practice.
#2; Practice; The kind of practice that you do matters. It’s not about the amount of time you spend practising, it’s about your awareness of what your practice is intending to achieve. Deliberate practice is the intentional practice of the parts that you find difficult. This means learning to identify the parts that are difficult for you.
This means taking responsibility for your own achievement. This varies from individual to individual so it requires some self awareness and reflection.
#3; Deliberate Practice.
The reason that deliberate practise is difficult is because it involves rewiring neural pathways. This is what effective practice is about, and it feels difficult. Repeatedly practising what comes easy to you, rerunning previously established neural pathways does not feel challenging. But, opening up new neural pathways is experienced as challenging. Repetition is necessary to create the new neural pathways in the brain. The new skill becomes embedded and easily accessed over time, when practised.
This is the nuts and bolts of how change happens.
For instance, if you always seek attention, feel the need to be seen and acknowledged, do something where you learn to accept being ignored, feel the feelings and do not try to act on them. Repeat this until you develop a tolerance for being ignored or overlooked.
Or maybe if you have a strong need to be right in your opinions. Learn to use situations where you are in the habit of expressing your opinion to ask yourself, what if I am wrong in my opinion/assessment of this situation?
This is not easy, but it does offer the opportunity to rewrite neural pathways. (BTW you don’t have to share what you are doing with anyone. It’s a private activity.)
It changes reactions into responses, what is unconscious into conscious activity.
#4; The Dance of Avoidance. This is an aspect of all attempts to bring about change in ourselves. We do not want to be challenged. We want to coast along comfortably as we are. We like to sleep, as Gurdjieff would say. But, we who have embarked on a spiritual journey are doing so because we want change and if we are truly sincere in our desire for change, we realise that we cannot expect the world or other folk to change. Our job is to facilitate change in ourselves. But, it is hard work! And unpleasant work!
Digging deep into our own flaws and shames and failures is not fun but it is necessary in order to facilitate deep change in our experience of being.
Each of us has to find ways to overcome our resistance or the many varieties of resistance that present themselves in the guise of entertainment or duty to the world or physical tiredness and so on. What are your particular means of resistance to looking within yourself?
#5; Self-evaluation; This is an aspect of taking responsibility for your own learning or progress. You can ask for feedback from those you deem worthy of giving you valuable feedback. Find ways to check if you are actually changing over time. Maybe keep a journal or do a yearly stock-take on your birthday. Read something you read ten years ago and see if you have changed in your response to it. Perhaps you can see that your understanding of what is being said has matured. You can ask yourself, what am I not understanding or doing that would facilitate my progress.
It’s all about “ladder work” – helping and being helped
Richard Rose, the founder of the TAT Foundation, spent his life searching for the Truth, finding it, and helping others to find their Way. Although not well known to the public, he touched the lives of thousands of spiritual seekers through his books and lectures and through personal contacts with local study groups that continue to work with his teachings today. He felt strongly that helping others generates help for ourselves as well in our climb up the ladder to the golden find beyond the mind.
Call To Action For TAT Forum Reader
With the intention of increasing awareness of TAT’s meetings, books, and the Forum among younger serious seekers, and to increase awareness of ways to approach the search for self-definition, the TAT Foundation is now on Instagram.
You can help! A volunteer is producing shareable text-quote and video content of Richard Rose and TAT-adjacent teachers. We need your suggestions for short, provocative 1-3 sentence quotes or 1 minute or less video clips of people like Richard Rose, Art Ticknor, Bob Fergeson, Tess Hughes, Bob Cergol, Shawn Nevins, Bob Harwood, Anima Pundeer, Norio Kushi, Paul Rezendes, Paul Constant, Mike Gegenheimer & other favorites.
Please send favorite inspiring/irritating quotes—from books you have by those authors, from the TAT Forum, or any other place—to TAT quotes. If you have favorite parts of longer videos (ex: from a talk at a past TAT meeting), please email a link to the video and a timestamp.
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TAT Foundation Press’s latest publication
Hope! Life’s Calling: Finding Yourself on the Spiritual Path Called Life is a profound exploration of self-inquiry, personal clarity, and the search for life’s deeper meaning. The book invites readers to confront their deepest questions and engage in a journey of self-discovery, offering hope for understanding one’s true nature and purpose. Paperback and Kindle versions are available, and the audiobook is now available for purchase in the Amazon Store and on Audible.
“A one-of-a-kind guidebook written for the person who sincerely wants to discover their essence—to learn who or what they truly are at the core….” ~ Tara
“A masterpiece of a wake-up call, really a slap-in-the-face to almost all the books out there in the spiritual marketplace that claim to offer some variation of the perennial wisdom needed to seek Truth, Reality, Essence or Source….” ~ bk
Read their full reviews on Amazon. And please add your review to the Amazon listing. It makes a difference!
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January “TAT Talks” online event: Saturday, January 31, noon ET. ** April Gathering (Claymont Great Barn): Friday evening through Sunday noon, April 17-19, 2026 ** May “TAT Presents” online event: TBD. June Gathering (Claymont Mansion): Friday evening through Sunday noon, June 12-14, 2026 July “TAT Talks” online event: TBD. August Gathering (Claymont Mansion): Friday evening through Sunday noon, August 21-22, 2026 October “TAT Talks” online event: TBD. November Gathering (Claymont Mansion): Friday evening through Sunday noon, November 6-8, 2026 December “TAT Talks” online event: TBD.
Our in-person gatherings in 2026 will be held at the Claymont Retreat Center in Charles Town, WV.
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Volunteers have been updating the channel with hours of new content! They’ve also curated some great playlists of talks by Richard Rose, teacher talks from recent & not so recent TAT meetings, episodes of the Journals of Spiritual Discovery podcast, and other great TAT related videos from around the internet.
Featuring: Richard Rose, Bob Cergol, Shawn Nevins, Bob Fergeson, Mike Conners, Anima Pundeer, Norio Kushi, Paul Rezendes, Bob Harwood, Tess Hughes, Art Ticknor, Shawn Pethel, Tyler Matthew and other speakers.
This month’s video features a short excerpt from a presentation by Bob Harwood:
Local Group News
Groups with recently updated information are listed below. The complete listing of local groups is on the Find a Local Group page.
Update from the Pittsburgh, PA self-inquiry group: > Use the e-mail link below for invitations to all meetings and to receive internal email announcements. > In-person bi-weekly meetings will be held at 2-4 PM in the Library of the Pittsburgh Friends Meeting House in Oakland (4836 Ellsworth Avenue, PA 15213); current events are listed on Meetup “Pittsburgh Self-inquiry Live” and http://www.pghsig.org – Sun, Mar 8, 2PM: “What is Reality?” – Sun, Mar 23, 2PM: Dean Hosts: “How do you separate Good from Evil?” > Online group confrontation and individual contributions every Wed, 8:00 pm EDT via Zoom; current online events are listed on Meetup “Pittsburgh Self-inquiry Group” – Wed, Mar 4: “Beliefs, Opinions and Explanations” – Wed, Mar 11: Leonard S. will Host – Wed, Mar 18: Guest TBA – Wed, Mar 25: Dave W. will Host > All Forum subscribers are welcome to join us. > Email to receive weekly topics with preparatory notes and Zoom invitations. Current events are listed on Meetup as Pittsburgh Self-inquiry Group (link above) and on Pittsburgh Self-Inquiry Live. We advocate self-inquiry, which is to question our beliefs and opinions of ourselves and those of others through honest and sincere feedback all in a friendly environment in order to recognize errors in our thinking and assumptions. Each participant gets an allotted time to voice their thoughts on the evening’s topic to which others can question or comment. Our format and inspiration for self-inquiry are influenced by numerous teachers and books, none more so than the teachings of Richard Rose which can be researched here: Our format and inspiration for self-inquiry are influenced by numerous teachers and books, none more so than the teachings of Richard Rose which can be researched atTAT (Truth & Transmission) Foundation.
A password-protected section of the website is available for TAT members. (Note that there’s an occasional glitch that, when you try to link to the members-only area or a sections within it, you’ll get a page-not-found error. If you try the link a second time, it should work.) Contents include:
How you can help TAT and fellow seekers,
Audio recordings of selected sessions from 2008-and-on in-person meetings and virtual gatherings.
Resources and ideas for those planning a group spiritual retreat.
Photographs of TAT meeting facilities, the Richard Rose grave site, a rare 1979 photo, and aerial photos of the Rose farm,
Presenters’ talk notes from April TAT meetings in 2005–2007, and
TAT News Letters from 1996–2013 and Annual Retrospectives from 1973 thru 2011. The Retrospectives from 1973–1985 were written by Richard Rose and are replete with ideas on the workings of a spiritual group—rich historical content.
TAT policies, TAT business meeting notes, and other information.
New audio recordings added:
December 2023 TAT Talk with Mike Gegenheimer.
January 2024 TAT Talk with Bob Harwood.
February 2024 TAT Virtual Event — Death, Dying, and Beyond.
March 2024 TAT Talk with Norio Kushi.
April 2024 in-person TAT Meeting.
May 2024 TAT Talk with Paul Constant.
June 2024 in-person TAT Meeting.
July 2024 TAT Talk with Art Ticknor.
August 2024 TAT Meeting – Running Between the Raindrops.
September 2024 TAT Virtual Retreat – Love, Self-Inquiry, Prayer: Three Paths or One?
October 2024 TAT Talk with Shawn Nevins.
Additions in November 2025: All 14 issues of the TAT Journal are now available in pdf format. Paperback issues of a “Forum for Awareness” were published on a quarterly basis from 1977 until 1980 and then on an annual basis until1986. The Journal’s editorial staff members, all of whom were volunteers, described the publication as a meeting place for…
Esoteric searchers, transcendentalists, mystics, scientists for the new frontiers…
People who are dedicated to the development of genuine friendship among all levels of spiritual and psychological research…
People who see the need to share ideas, but who cannot meet personally, and for those who will give support and find support while seeking a common goal…
Specialists who see the value of broadening their perspectives by association with specialists in related fields and for people who, regardless of specialty, find a value in the psychological encounters with their fellows that help them to better understand themselves and so find peace of mind and a better understanding of their friends.
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Downloadable/rental versions of the Mister Rose video and of April 2012 TAT sessions on Remembering Your True Desire:
“You don’t know anything until you know Everything….”
Mister Rose is an intimate look at a West Virginia native many people called a Zen Master because of the depth of his wisdom and the spiritual system he conveyed to his students. Profound and profane, Richard Rose was not the kind of man most people picture when they think of mystics or spiritual teachers. Yet, he was the truest of teachers, one who had “been there,” one who had the cataclysmic experience of spiritual enlightenment.
Filmed in the spring of 1991, the extraordinary documentary follows Mr. Rose from a radio interview, to a university lecture and back to his farm, as he talks about his experience, his philosophy and the details of his life.
Whether you find him charming or offensive, fatherly or fearsome, you will not forget him, and never again will you think about yourself, reality, or life after death in quite the same way.
2012 April TAT Meeting – Remembering Your True Desire
Includes all the speakers from the April 2012 TAT meeting: Art Ticknor, Bob Fergeson, Shawn Nevins and Heather Saunders.
1) Remembering Your True Desire … and Acting on It, by Art Ticknor Spiritual action is like diving for the Pearl beyond Price. What do you do when you don’t know what to do or how to do it? An informal discussion centered around the question: “What prevents effective spiritual action?”
2) Swimming in the Inner Ocean: Trips to the Beach, by Bob Fergeson A discussion of the varied ways we can use in order to hear the voice of our inner ocean, the heart of our true desires.
3) A Wider and Wilder Vision, by Shawn Nevins Notes on assumptions, beliefs, and perspectives that bind and free us.
4) Make Your Whole Life a Prayer, by Heather Saunders An intriguing look into a feeling-oriented approach to life.
TAT founder Richard Rose believed that working with others accelerates our retreat from untruth. He also felt that such efforts were most effective when applied with discernment, meaning working with others on the rungs of the ladder closest to our own. The TAT News section is for TAT members to communicate about work they’ve been doing with or for other members and friends. Please your “ladder work” news.
Humor {(h)yo͞omər}
“One thing you must be able to do in the midst of any experience is laugh. And experience should show you that it isn’t real, that it’s a movie. Life doesn’t take you seriously, so why take it seriously.” ~ Richard Rose, Carillon
Irritation moves us; inspiration provides a direction
Stream
i sit by the stream listening for the seven sounds on a blue plastic tarp resting on the decay of oak birch maple ash beech fallen leaves nothing but the no name stream no birds no planes overhead far enough from midday traffic the biting insects buzz wanes in the august haze nothing but the stream i turn my head tilt an ear streams rise of consciousness strife worry world war apocalypse dissolution nothing
and there is a river the streams whereof make glad the city of god
rising trickles dropping rolling upstream downstream ripples plopping dropping rock eroding pouring pulsing
seven sounds ten thousand things all in all all that I have ears to hear for a time a deafening stillness settles roars and i am knowing
this stream though is passing soon i’ll be forgetting once again
A talk given by Ajahn Sona at the Vancouver Public Library in 2008, reflecting on his 20 years as a monk.
> [around 9:00] Ajahn had the shocking insight as a teenager that he was identified with the story of being a character living a life when he was what was actually watching that movie.
> [around 37:50] “Our literature is a substitute for religion, and so is our religion,” from “A Dialogue on Dramatic Poetry.” ~ T.S. Eliot
> [around 49:00] Living in a Tibetan Buddhist monastery in WV ,,, an old, retired truck driver became his best “Zen master” with the friendly greeting “What do you know for sure?” Ajahn was still living with that primary question.
Thanks to Mario P.
Coleman Barks
Coleman Barks passed away on February 23, 2026 at the age of 88. I’ve owned a copy of his book The Essential Rumi for nearly 30 years and still consider the poem “Who Says Words with My Mouth?” a quintessential expression of spiritual longing. Even before his book, a friend photocopied a few of his Rumi poems and sent them to me while I was living on Richard Rose’s farm. They kept me connected to my own longing and thus on the path through many a dark night.
In later years, I was bold enough to mail him a few of my poems and was astonished to receive an encouraging, hand-written reply! Though my interest in his work diminished over time, I would occasionally check his website to see any updates. A couple of years ago, I was inspired to hear him interviewed and learn he was still hard at work in his eighties and excited about upcoming projects.
Thank you Coleman, for a long-life well-lived and the many lives you influenced, including my own.
Ode 911: On the day I die On the day I die, when I’m being carried toward the grave, don’t weep. Don’t say, ‘He’s gone! He’s gone!’ Death has nothing to do with going away. The sun sets and the moon sets, but they’re not gone. Death is a coming together. The tomb looks like a prison, but it’s really release into Union. The human seed goes down in the ground like a bucket into the well where Joseph is. It grows and comes up full of some unimagined beauty. Your mouth closes here and immediately opens with a shout of joy there.
~ Thanks to Shawn Nevins. The poem by Rumi is one of the selection translated by Barks in The Essential Rumi. The image is from a 2011 reading in Norway from Wikimedia Commons.
The Nature of Consciousness
What were your thoughts on the nature of consciousness before listening to this? Has the dialogue changed what you think/feel?
Please your impressions of the above items.
Reader Commentary
Encouraging interactive readership among TAT members and friends
A reader wrote that what would make the Forum more interesting would be:
Hearing from people who are searching—and have questions instead of those providing endless advice and “answers.” What challenges they are facing. What their doubts and questions are. How they perceive their path is going. What they are doing in their lives. Where they think they will end up, etc., etc.
Can you help make the Forum more interesting?
The Reader Commentary question for the March TAT Forum:
Purpose: “The reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists.” ~ Oxford Languages
Do you have clarity on your purpose?
Responses follow:
From Saima Y:
I feel I don’t yet have full clarity on my purpose, but I do feel it has to do with knowing the Truth of who I really am. Something internal seems to be guiding me there. And the older I get, the more I realize that the worldly pursuits are not the purpose. The inner world seems to have a secret to share. One I’ve been pursuing more lately.
Can I add this quote to my purpose? It’s become my purpose.
“Instead of searching for what you do not have, find out what it is that you have never lost.” ~ Nisargadatta, I Am That
From Michael R:
What would provide clarity of purpose? A thought? A feeling? A vision? Could that clarity come and go? The purpose change over time?
For a long time now I have thought of myself as someone whose purpose was to find God, Truth, Home. This has felt like the most valuable thing, the satisfaction of my longing, what life seemed to be asking of me. The degree to which this has felt like my purpose, my conviction and commitment, has waxed and waned over the years, but nothing else has felt more true as an answer to my purpose (assuming such a thing exists).
Somewhere along the line it became (relatively) clear to me that the comings and goings, of insight, motivation, curiosity, desire, lethargy, distraction, emptiness, longing, reorientation, and everything in between, weren’t something I (as Michael) was doing. They just show up, seemingly beyond my control. Maybe some cosmic “me” is running that whole show, but from the viewpoint here those movements all seem to arise spontaneously.
Where that leaves purpose is closer to “whatever is happening now” with a tentative ability to project certain things into the future based on remembered past patterns, current convictions, etc. I don’t have true, lasting clarity on anything. Doubtful I would until I know what I am. Clarity of purpose? Who’s purpose? How can I know my purpose without knowing what I am?
Everything seems to come back to that, to knowing what I am, knowing what’s really going on here, that seems to be what I’m wired to wonder all day long, which is about as close to “purpose” as it gets, I suppose. Not sure if it’ll make a difference when this body and mind are gone, though I can’t imagine knowing your True Nature, your Source, would be anything but a positive as the transition is made.
Seemingly regardless of any imagined outcome, which is a noteworthy difference than past orientations, here I am, wondering, curious, following this apparent call amongst life’s fleeting distractions. Maybe I’m the one calling, too.
From Todd W:
Unpacking “purpose” a bit; it feels like a through line of a narrative: starting at an origin, moving through ups and downs, and landing on some destination. I don’t have clarity on my purpose because any purpose that I can possibly intuit is just a concept. It’s almost always constructed from memory (“what I’ve done”), projection (“what I should do”), comparison (“what others are doing”), and fear or hope (“if I get this right, I’ll be okay”). Remove the thoughts and words like “purpose” and “meaning” just don’t make sense. The raw experience of right now is where clarity is found.
From Lena S:
Much earlier on my self-inquiry journey, I was quite sure that I had the best strategies, based upon access to the best teachings, the best books and an ego obsessed with all the right ways and means. I had the map and the resources to confirm my direction, and self-confidence abounded. However, over the years it is interesting to note that what has changed the most about my journey is the evolution of the map and compass.
A common metaphor in seeker circles is to not mistaken the map for the terrain, or the compass for pointing. It seems to imply that we fool ourselves, a misgiving inherent within any task that our ego gets involved. Only some form of ‘spiritual maturity’ would be able to recognize that for any strategy undertaken, the ego may be the primary and only driving force for the purpose of self-affirmation unless from a ‘better view’ one can step back from the practices and beliefs to recognize some otherness at work, maybe just a desire, from which my endeavor might have roots. Some call that longing, assuming a higher purpose. That maturity sees that with what I identify could never pursue that longing, nor is there even an inkling what the longing is for. The metaphor of the usefulness of a map and compass in the desert becomes relevant. I don’t know where I am if I don’t know who I am. So in such vagueness, for what use is map or compass?
From Art Ticknor:
I saw what I wanted most from life shortly after meeting Richard Rose in 1978. I don’t know how to explain the seeing, which came when I was meditating one morning. It didn’t appear as words or an image, just a “knowing.” And some time not long afterward, I read or heard a phrase that Rose had used, and it nailed the feeling of what I had seen: “to become the Truth at any cost.”
I didn’t have a clue what that would look like or be, and I didn’t know if it was even possible. But I had scanned my mind looking for holdouts that I felt could override that objective, didn’t find any, and that created a commitment that held until a breakthrough occurred 26 years later.
A year or so after meeting Rose, I told him that I wished there was some way I could repay him for the change in my life that he had initiated. He responded: “That’s not the way it works; pass it on.” I started trying to do that by working with other seekers and continued to do so for the quarter century of my continued seeking. And I have continued doing so for the 20 years since then.
From Dan G:
The three sections of Carillon: Poems, Essays and Philosophies of Richard Rose offer three categories of self-definition: the dreamer, the dreamer in the dream, and the dreamer of the dream. Each seems to have a different purpose.
I, defined as the dreamer, seem to have a purpose lined up with both self-honesty and love. Rumi says, “There is a light seed grain inside. You fill it with yourself, or it dies.” The dreamer is meant to be sacrificed for something truer, bigger, more important, and realer. And nothing less.
From the dreamer in the dream’s perspective, the dream’s purpose might be a mirror. My purpose seems to be to look back at myself. The light seed grain changes to consciousness, and I’m filling consciousness with attention. I sacrifice the dream I’m in for a prayer to wake up in the strongest way I know how.
What is the purpose of the dreamer of the dream? Maybe this light seed can grow and outgrow.
Maybe it’s related to Our Town’s, “everybody knows in their bones that something is eternal, and that something has to do with human beings. All the greatest people ever lived have been telling us that for five thousand years and yet you’d be surprised how people are always losing hold of it. There’s something way down deep that’s eternal about every human being.”
What’s the purpose of eternal, unchanging, silence? I might need to go there to check.
From Google’s AI Overview:
Prompt: What do you think about clarity of one’s purpose in life?
Key Insights on Clarity of Life Purpose
• A “Why” Driven Compass: Purpose acts as the “why” behind what you do, providing direction and preventing you from being “a ship without a rudder,” as described by Thomas Carlyle (via this Facebook post). It helps you stay focused on what matters, acting as a filter for decisions.
• Process Over Destination: Contrary to popular belief, purpose isn’t a final destination to be reached, but a continuous journey of self-reflection and action. It can, and often does, change and evolve through different life stages.
• Action Generates Clarity: It is often easier to act your way into a new way of thinking than to think your way into a new way of acting. Trying new things and reflecting on what brings you joy helps uncover your purpose.
• Reduces Mental Health Issues: A lack of purpose is linked to higher rates of anxiety and depression, particularly among young adults. Having a clear “why” provides motivation, especially during challenging times.
• Subjective and Unique: Your purpose is uniquely yours and can be found in many areas—work, relationships, hobbies, or volunteering. It is not necessarily just a single job or career.
• Combating Fear: When you have a clear purpose, it acts as a “shield,” allowing you to navigate challenges with resilience and reducing the power of fear or doubt.
How to Cultivate Clarity
• Reflect on Your Life: Look for underlying themes, patterns, and what fills you with joy.
• Identify Your Strengths: Focus on your unique talents and what you are good at.
• Take Action: Step outside your comfort zone and try new experiences, rather than just thinking about it.
• Define Your “Why”: Ask yourself what brings you joy, makes you forget time, or what you would do if fear wasn’t a factor.
• Align with Values: Ensure your daily actions and long-term goals align with your personal values.
From Matt C:
I do have clarity on my purpose, but it’s a clarity that, in the end, eludes words. The idea of defining and articulating my purpose, vocation, calling, or mission took hold of me strongly in my twenties and played a major role in my philosophical, emotional, and professional life for many years. I read books on the subject, did the recommended exercises, journaled about it, and all the rest. I also explicitly related it to the books and teachings on nonduality and other religious and spiritual matters that gripped me.
In the end, the most useful practical model for me was probably the one developed by the psychologist Dick Richards in his book Is Your Genius at Work? He lays out a method of arriving at a two-word description of your purpose in the form of a gerund plus a noun — in other words, a doing verb paired with a noun that identifies the thing done. The result is a unique phrase that expresses the broad and deep theme you’re uniquely wired, suited, and inclined to enact and bring into the world. He situates this within the ancient Western idea of the personal genius or daimon, the inner presiding spirit that represents your core character. (On this count, I was also deeply influenced and helped by James Hillman’s The Soul’s Codeand Patrick Harpur’s Daimonic Reality.)
I sat with this exercise, which is actually a suite of them, and returned to it off and on for years. I eventually arrived at “illuminating depth” as a reasonably accurate identification of my genius or purpose. Its accuracy is confirmed subjectively, by my native passions and predilections, and objectively, by the reactions other people have consistently had to what I bring.
Importantly, through experimenting with this and other approaches, I also found that it’s possible to become far too precious about all of this, to turn the attempt to identify my purpose into a kind of black hole of egoic self-absorption. When I encountered Richard Rose’s idea of becoming a vector, it deepened my understanding by helping me strip away some of the unrecognized egoic hangups that had encrusted my efforts and outlook.
Do I still have a purpose? Sure — and it’s unfolding continuously, always in this ever-new, never-changing here-now moment, in the dual fact of this karmic wave of “myself” playing out its energy patterns while being infused throughout by the clear awareness that observes it all without attachment. There’s a relative, worldly purpose, carried out through things like writing, teaching, and conversing, and there’s an absolute purpose that is simply the return to zero of this whole roiling wave or dream of me-plus-world. It’s here without effort, without any need for me to pursue or maintain it, and without any need for anxiety over the possibility that I’m somehow “missing it” or “failing to fulfill it.” Even the times and inner states in which I’ve been gripped by that worry have been nothing but the thing itself, constantly correcting its own course.
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Richard Rose (1917-2005) established the TAT Foundation in 1973 to encourage people to work together on what he considered to be the “grand project” of spiritual work.
A “PEARL” FROM THE ARCHIVES: THE JANE S. STORY By Frank E. Mascara
These notes were provided from a written eye-witness account, circa 1972, recorded by a former student of Richard Rose. Initials have been used to protect the privacy of individuals mentioned since this article is published via the Internet.
Jane S. went through an amazing transformation during the “experience.” Her face changed physically into a serious-looking, suffering person. What she was experiencing—her perspective, had totally transformed her into a new person. She said, “I want to love you, Chuck (her husband), but you’re not there or not real.” She began to weep, tremble and fall apart before my eyes. I was amazed, but I never doubted that it was real—no one could act this way. I was shocked to hear her husband say she was acting most of it out. I was convinced; I had studied books about illusion (maya), states of mind, but now I had witnessed a mind penetrating these concepts in a very real way.
We were all not there, not real to Jane, and this made her, and me, very sad. She knelt on the floor crying for some time. But time was the farthest thing from my mind.
I wasn’t sure of the mechanics of the experience, but I knew that Jane and Rose were linked in some way. His words seemed to either help her out of the despair or drive her to more tears, depending on the nature of his comments. He seemed to be along for the trip, but not able to control her every experience. After some time passed, Rose seemed to draw Jane out of the Pit by making favorable comments to her. When he would say, “you’re beautiful inside,” the crying would slow up or stop. Without favorable comments, she would seem to fall back into the Pit—explaining how hopeless and empty everything was. Her face changed dramatically again and she returned to the air-headed, energy-driven person I knew. It was Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde before my eyes. Rose later said he coaxed her out because he didn’t feel she could go any further. He turned his inner head away—shutting off the pictures she was picking up on. He told her if she wanted to finish it off, she should come back and stay for a definite time period.
I believe Rose said to Jane, right before the experience, “you’re inside my head.” Jane said, “I know, I’ve been there all day.” Early in the day we were at Rose’s farm walking around, J. (my wife) and myself, Jane and Chuck, and Mr. Rose. Rose said he was able to get inside her head as we walked and talked. Also, before the experience, Rose was doing some hypnotic suggestions and he read the Three Books of the Absolute. I remembered how alive all the words were. I seemed to drift into a state where I was feeling or seemed to be experiencing some of what he was saying. “Oh tender I-ness, what have I done to thee.” He started to point at me as if he recognized my mental state. At that instant, Jane started to cry. All of the attention in the room, including mine, was shifted in her direction.
I remember Rose had given Jane a posthypnotic suggestion, something about sugar. I believe he said when she heard the word sugar she would crave something sweet. I remember she left the room and when she came back from the kitchen, Rose said, “were you in the sugar bowl—were you eating something sweet?” and she started to laugh as if she was caught with her hand in the cookie jar. Then she started to cry. I believe that’s when he said, “You’re inside my head,” and she replied, “I’ve been there all day,” or something to that effect.
After the experience, I thought Jane would become a totally spiritual person. I visited her a few days or weeks later and I was amazed. She was dressed in a black mini-skirt on her way to a bar maid’s job. Her make-up seemed excessive and she was in no mood to discuss a spiritual direction with me. She said what she saw was death and that she wanted to live. She didn’t want to get into it anymore. I remember being upset with her because I felt her experience was real and that it was important for her to work with others and continue to pursue her own final spiritual experience. Rose had said she had seen only one part of the picture. The nothingness of life—illusion…but she hadn’t seen that she was everything. In these days Rose was a powerful transmitter of thoughts. Jane, in my opinion, was a highly sensitive and energetic person who was able to pick up on his head and this is what propelled the experience. Zen masters call it transmission.
Jane had been into TM and EST before we met up with Mr. Rose. She transformed during this experience. It changed her drastically so that she was trembling so much that she could barely speak. Normally it was hard to shut her up and she was highly egotistical. She did all of her husband’s talking, too. I’m not certain if it was her fault or his passive nature.
One night, months after her experience, she was doing some mescaline and I was taking notes and asking questions. I believe she started to go back into the experience. She looked at Chuck again and asked J. (my wife) to touch him. She said he has no feeling, that he is not real or something close to those words. Chuck was not upset at all and offered his hand to J. and I to prove he was real. J. refused, I didn’t. Jane seemed to get upset.
Shortly after that night Jane decided to divorce Chuck. Jane was a powerful personality. She did a million things at once. She was able to manipulate more than Chuck. J. was also under her spell (energy or the Holy Spirit and voltage) for some time when they moved into an apartment together.
Even though I had meditated and sat with people and searched for knowledge and power during my years in yoga, I was amazed by the energy that was present in the room the night Jane went into her experience. It was true what the yogis had said…a person could experience such an energy force without drugs. The room was electrified. I could feel it. Rose later told me he could watch it move around the room. He said it was working on my head when Jane entered the room and it hit her. It seemed to freeze my mind or lock it into a single vision. All the right place to find the true self and get some answers. I was impressed with Rose. He was an older man in his 50’s, but he seemed to have more energy than us youngsters. This energy phenomena was not isolated to just the Jane S. experience. Following the formation of a group of people who felt Rose could help them, I witnessed this energy again several times. In most cases, the voltage would transform whoever it descended on. I guess you could say they were all mild Jane S. types of transformations. These experiences mostly happened when we sat in small groups we called rapport sessions. The energy would build in the room and suddenly someone would receive a jolt. It caused tears, facial changes and new perspectives. Some who experienced, namely A.F. and M.G. (from OH) and D.P. (from PA), told me that they tried to fight it. I remember A.F. telling me how he felt the energy was trying to take something away (his ego) and he fought it tooth and nail for 20 minutes. A. He felt somewhat transformed—even though temporarily by these experiences.
To me, this proves that the energy was a universal principle and a teacher need not be present. Rose didn’t have a monopoly. He advised us on how to bring it about, and that it wasn’t really necessary for him to be there. I guess most street people would think I was crazy if I told them sitting in a room quietly for 35 minutes could produce such wild results.
None of the people that I sat with in rapport were present during the Jane S. incident so they could not fake or create the events I have recounted during these rapports.
During private meditation I would feel energy, but never to the degree that I witnessed during the group rapports. The voltage seemed to help open doors for people to see things about themselves or to help them change. It seemed to apply pressure to them; they didn’t seem to enjoy it. It was not always enjoyable. Many people feel that anything that is not enjoyable cannot be good. But in spiritual progress this seems to be totally false. Through self-discipline, sacrifice and suffering, a person grows in stature if he can bear the load.
I often wondered how this energy was manufactured. Some people seemed more sensitive to it. Others would say they felt very little during a session. Rose says women have greater sensitivity so they would more often than not, receive the voltage. This prompted male and female rapport groups. Many people other than myself can attest to this phenomenon. I believe the number is close to 20 to 30 who have had minor breakthroughs as a direct result of Rose and his advised rapport sessions.
I admit this concept is nothing new. Quakers have used it. Christians talk of the Holy Spirit moving people. But for many people who came into contact with Rose, this energy was not just a concept, but an experience in life.
The energy phenomena happened to others in the company of Rose. J. was sitting in Rose’s kitchen and felt an energy flowing between Rose and herself as it hit her in the heart area—she started to cry. M.M. (from OH) was in the room at the time and put his head across the table in the line of energy and was jolted by the current. I was present for another similar experience. J., myself, A.T. (from PA) [not Art Ticknor -Ed] and Rose were talking about some historical events when A. seemed to join a certain train of thought that Rose was thinking. In my opinion, he entered Rose’s mind. The words of a certain battle hymn came out of A.’s mouth and his eyes got big and he started to get choked up. His transformation lasted a short time as J. turned to him and said, A., what’s the matter? He slowly came back to earth. Later that day on the way to the farm I asked him what he had seen. He said he would never doubt that Rose was a genuine teacher. “He said Rose knows the answers, he really does. Most people think he knows, but I know for sure.” I believe he also said he felt that their minds were one for a short time.
Rose, in evaluating his success as a spiritual mentor, has been pretty hard on himself at the time of these writings.
March 10, 1985: No one has reached the maximum answer “absolute truth”, but many have received minor spiritual experiences as a result of their contact with Rose and the group. I wonder when compared to any congregation or religious group how well he would stand. In my opinion, most people who stayed with his system were affected in the manner I have described.
A meeting at my home developed into an intensive session. M.T. (from D.C.) received the energy on this 1979 occasion. Rose was away from the group at this time. We had a meeting of all the group (Pyramid Zen) monitors. We sat for a while and the energy began to build. When I saw the force that was on M., I decided to point at him. Rose had said when this was done at the proper time, it would intensify the energy. I was not sure if I was doing the right thing, but my intuition was giving me the go ahead. This session was intense. M. was trembling and seemed to get some insight from the session. Later, other participants confirmed my feeling and felt that the pointing I had directed was appropriate. I was glad to see we could produce something without Rose. Someday he will be gone and I thought these types of experiences should help to keep a group together…or help to bring in new people.
Rose taught us on various levels at once. Questions were addressed to all subjects—anything from auto mechanics to sex. Many of the early members were lacking the householder skills. I remember how much I learned on a physical level, (and) learning to be a man which would help on a higher level.
Rose was a powerful communicator—he would talk directly, didn’t beat around the bush.
My first encounter with Rose was at the University of Pittsburgh. A student at the high school where I was teaching told me about him after he had attended his lecture. He said that he shook hands with Rose after his talk and felt a tremendous jolt of energy. He thought I would like what he had to say. J., myself, Jane and Chuck decided to attend the following week. We headed for Pittsburgh to see how Rose compared to other outfits (T.M., EST, etc.) we had been investigating. We walked into an apartment and Rose was sitting on a stool discussing philosophy. After listening for a few hours, I was impressed. He talked directly and wasted little time in making his points. I knew from that moment, that he had something that I wanted. Some self-knowledge that I was lacking. I bought his book that evening—that shows what a good salesman he is, as I am not easily sold. It made for interesting reading for the next few weeks, but I was more impressed with his discussions, so we arranged to make a trip to Benwood to visit at his house. These weekend meetings became the highlight of my life. The more time I spent there, the more I wanted to return. He didn’t have as many irons in the fire then, and was able to devote much of his free time with us. We would spend many hours in discussions, trips to his farm, hypnosis techniques and rapport sessions. He would also read from the “Three Books of the Absolute.”
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~ Thanks to Paul Constant for locating this article, and thanks to Bob Cergol for the photo of Frank from the early years of TAT.
Frank Eugene Mascara, 78, of Boca Raton, Fla., passed away peacefully on May 27, 2025, after a brave battle against Parkinson’s disease. He was born on March 2, 1947, in Charleroi [PA], and was the son of the late Frank R. Mascara and Frances Do Mascara Levy. Frank was a 1965 graduate of Bellmar High School and a 1969 graduate of West Liberty College. Frank was a standout on the football field in high school and played two years of college football. After his college graduation, Frank was a schoolteacher and assistant football coach at Thomas Jefferson School District; thereafter moving to St. Clairsville, Ohio, where he started his own business in roofing and remodeling
In 1989, he moved to Wellington, Fla., and became a guidance counselor in the Lake Worth School District, where he worked for over 30 years and from where he retired in 2015. Frank was beloved by his students and was always there to greet them with a friendly face and provide help to them in any way possible. Frank had to endure one of the early school shootings, which sadly today have become commonplace, when a teacher who was a good friend a few doors down from his own room was shot and killed by a 14-year-old student. He said at the time that it was one of the most difficult times in his life, trying to help counsel those students who witnessed the shooting and to prepare them to testify in court against a fellow classmate. Frank was a shining light in the lives of all who had the privilege of knowing him. His journey on this earth was one marked by love, compassion and understanding. His passing has left a void in the hearts of his family, friends and many more whose lives were touched by him. We ask that you remember him not for the way his life ended, but for the way it was lived and for the profound impact it had on the lives of those who had the pleasure of knowing him.
Frank is survived by his wife of 53 years, Jeanne Tench Mascara; his two daughters, Maria (Joseph) Rodriquez and Marcy (Alex) Parr; his son, Frank T. Mascara; four grandchildren, Mason and Chase Rodriquez and Pierson and Milana Parr; his sister, Karen Talbert; stepfather, James Levy; and many nieces and nephews who were very special to him. He was predeceased by a brother, Mark Mascara. A celebration of life will be held at 4 p.m. June 28, 2025, at Replay, 6600 High Ridge Road, Boynton Beach, FL 33426. Condolences can be made to the family by mail at: 9485 Cobblestone Creek Drive, Boynton Beach, FL 33472 or by email: mascaralaw@gmail.com.
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